scream out

I HATE YOU !!!

giving up my life :)

i am going to give up with my life ,
ill leave all of them ,
ill leave all these pain .
ill stop study and start a new life .

no one can stop me ,
not even one of these people will ever see me again .
ill go as far as i can so that no one will see me .
far enough to run away from my own shadow .

i just want to throw this pain away ,
i just want them to know how in pain i am .
im really hurt .

yes i may look strong ,
i may look tough ,
but deep inside here <3 ,
im already broken .
broken into pieces .

i wish i could just do it ,
but i know ,
that running away is not a solution .
ill fight ,
till the end of my life , ill fight

stand on your own feet :)

thanks to my mum for giving me such a great topic :)

lets see..

how much do you rely on your own self?

100% ?

i don't think so ..

friends are friends .

enemies are enemies .

friends could be enemies .

and so do inversely .

being nice to your friends ,

doesnt mean they'll do the same .

treat them like a trash ,

u'll get worse than that .

gossiping with your bestfriend and ask her to keep it,

you will think its safe,

but when the ship started to sink ,

you'll realize that you're such a sh*t.

keep asking your friend for a favor ,

they'll kindly do it for you ,

but once you enter the real life ,

ull never made it to live .

life is not easy,

life is not simple ,

if you want to stay alive ,

you gotta learn so u can survive .

*hehe macam buat pantun dah nii XD

we are hurt :(

why would you do this ?

does it hard to be nice?

is it killing you ?

seeing other people happy .

why would you be this bad ?

only think about your own feeling ,

that you forgot to respect the other ,

and put yourself on the highest place .

why would u build up your ego ?

thinking you'll go far ?
not far enough to run away from your own sins .

it will never vanished just like that .

things are not that easy !

keep on hurting other !

keep on telling lies !

keep on being an actor !

an actor in your own world .

but remember peeps!

you can never run away from your sins .

it will haunt you .

it is okay dear,

to pretend like ure not guilty .

like uve done nothing wrong .

it is okay :)

one day, if and only if you managed to find the right path ,

you will regret all of this .

you will realize how silly u are all this time .

lets just wait for the time to come .

till then , all the best :)

*this post has nothing to do with any of you,

no offense.

if u hate it, it is your right.

if u think its u who im talking about,

clearly that's caused by your own attitude .

think wisely

what is your true color?

it is okay to show your true color ,

it is okay to be who you are ,

if people dont like you ,

then it is their color ,

which can't find the harmony needed .

your color is the right color ,

and that's only if you found the real one ,

lots of color are around you ,

waiting to expressed themselves ,

bright colors are more than dark one ,

doesnt mean dark colors are bad .

harmony in those colors cant be seen clearly ,

up to the person to see it slowly ,

one who managed to look through the colors ,

will see another dimension of it ,

just like an aurora ,

dancing on the air ,

filling the sky with happiness .

one who see color .

a color ,

should realize that the other are hiding .

from what ?

you have to discover it by yourself .

whether you believe it or not ,

the colors are there .

Life Just is

"life is wonderful,

life is beautiful,

so live your life"

i used to hear this words,

i used to believe this,

for me life is wonderful,

with challenges and happiness,

when im frown,

ill remember that i have tons of people who love me,

who care and don't want to see me crying and sad

i realize that im such a lucky girl,

and how im not alone,

but still....

there will be a time where i cant find myself,

where i get stuck in situation with no solution,

i used to tell my friends that there is no problem with no solution,

i used to..

but clearly that i,myself also couldnt get the answer sometimes,

there are question with no answer,

problem with not a good solution,

and life with exceeded happiness.

lots of thing are beyond of our boundary,

to think,to control,and even to get it.

so the only thing that we can do

is pray,and hoping with all of our heart.

sometimes life is meaningless,

but ive always remember,

that therell be a rainbow after a rain.

that there are lots of colour to fill my world.

and that ill never be alone.

I love my mother :)

Proudly present MDM FAZILAH BINTI KASAN

She is my mother,

yes she is

:)

she is old but still stunning huh?

i would like to talk about why i love my mother.

1. She is understanding

2. She is a good cook

3. She cleaned up my room

4. She is my banker

5. She will protect me from you

consider u as a stranger XD

6. She is caring,loving, et cetera et cetera

okay done with all the numbers as its useless

i can never give a complete list about why i love my mother

just like all of you.

A mother is just too precious and her kindness is uncountable

her love is more than anyone could give you.

you couldnt ask for more

just like one of CELINE DION'S SONG titled because u loved me.

"You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me "

So that's it!

THANK YOU MAMA

I'LL LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF MY BREATH <3

ATTENTION PLEASE !!!

REACHING FOR THE STARS

A.K.A.

BLOG ERYNN NI LAH

HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYONE

TIADA KENA MENGENA DENGAN YANG MASIH HIDUP

MAHUPUN YANG TELAH MENINGGAL DUNIA

HARAP ANDA SEMUA BAWA BERTENANG

SEKIAN TERIMA KASIH

XD

explanation :)

okay this is awkward

do i have to make any explanation about my blog?

i mean yea its public so why do i have to make an explanation

my blog is just fine

im NOT condemning anyone

okay listen

i didnt mention any names in my blog

it is opened to anyone

to read it and think about it

if u think that it hits you

then it is your problem

i have no idea on why u will feel so if u did nothing wrong??

think wisely =.='

*i hate it when i have to make an explanation for nothing :@

Behave Yourself!

omg you are just a little kid

then how come your attitude could be this bad?

i mean like come on

i know ur mom is sucks but never thought that u'll be just like her too

ive been such a silly girl for being nice to u

just to realize that it was u who spread rumors about me

think ure good enough?

ure just a little kid

your time will come and till then

we'll see

i dare you to behave like a good girl

as its clear that ure such a freak and jealous bi**h

ohh and fyi,

i am NOT JEALOUS at all

dont try to make me feel so cause im not interested

i know that ure jealous at me

but come on

what can i do about it?

u just have to figure out any other way to make me feel stupid

shame on you girl

hey watch out miss!!

okay that was rude

it is your right to talk about whoever you want

though when it is too clear that it is me that ure pointing at

u can't put the blame on me when i feel offended??

how do u expect me to react?

pretending like nothing ?

sorry but that is not me

plus in our situation,

it is you who are in the weak side..

would like to feel more?

oh please..its too easy for me

ure older so come on..

stop being childish..

ure not that perfect to talk about other..

plus when u dont even know him/her

seize the day sis :)

MORAL VALUE: think before you talk :)

The Latest Introduction Of A Girl Called Erynn :)

* ME, SHAZWANI ,FATY *

Okay hello guys..you..you..youuu who are reading this right now

*pretending like lots of people visit my blog..lols

Okay so my name is NOR ZAIRIN BINTI ZAFRI

I am NOW 18 years old...*at last

I was born on 5th November 1993 at Pusat Rawatan Pakar Suhaimi

Compared to my besfriends, i am the most youngest as they were born on january,march,june,august and october

See??im the youngest

and its not cool.... :O

they teased me for being the youngest

but still,thanks to my mother :P

I am now a University student

*Yes i am proud with myself

Taking a Diploma In Quantitative Science at UiTM Arau

It is an interesting course as its into calculation

My philosophy of life is easy

"nothing will come to you by itself"

well no matter how simple the thing is,

u have to make an effort before getting it.

by using this philo,

i am now,

announcing the new ME.

the much matured and professional me

i want to delete my blog !!

okay i realize something...

my blog was a bit *jiwang and okay that's not cool...

i would like to delete all of it but i can't!!

well they are just too cute..

so ill just pretend like they are not exist anymore as i started a new one...

goodbye childish meee XD

Stereo Hearts!!!

I am sooo in love with this song!!

thanks to Natasha Ong as she was the one who introduced this song to me..

and now i just can't stop singing..

this song is just so..............................

i can't choose the right word to describe it..

but there is something special about this song..

it's melody,and the singer's voice..

he is just like Bruno Mars which has his own unique voice that can amazed people..

and the rhythm is interesting too besides having a cuteee lyric..

and here is the lyric for ya...enjoy!! XD

My heart's a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]

If I was just another dusty record on the shelve
Will you blow me off and play me like everybody else
If I ask you to scratch my back, could you manage that
Like it read well, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
This the last girl that play me left a couple cracks
I used to used to used to used to, now I’m over that
Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts

If I could only find a note to make you understand
I sing a song and the image grab me by the hands
Keep myself inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]

My heart's a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

[Travie McCoy]

If I wasn't old school, fifty pound boombox
Would you hold me on your shoulder, wherever you walk


Would you turn my volume up before of the cops
And crank it higher everytime they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don't get mad at me
When you have to purchase mad D batteries
Appreciate every mixtape your friends make
You never know we come and go like we're on the interstate

I think finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hear it, sing along and take me by the hands
Keep myself inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you

[Chorus]

My heart's a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

[Bridge]

I only pray you never leave me behind
Because good music can be so hard to find
I take your hand and pull it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind

[Chorus]

My heart's a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo

Fashionnn!!! uhh COPY CAT??

To talk about fashion!

YES!!! i lovee fashion...

but my opinion about it...

is just same with other people...

it just that im not a copy cat!!

fashion is not about getting dressed up like artists..

for me., its about being who you are...

and to feel comfort...

and in the same time...

CONFIDENT!!

confident is soooo damn important...

don't feel shy about the way u dress yourself..

don't feel sad if other people make a weird face while they are looking at you..

haha maybe that is because they are impressed with the way you dress up..

or maybe because they think you are a freak..

that is possible too right..

but who cares about what they think about YOU??

yes i used capital letters to show that YOU are the one who can choose your own way..your own style...

and NO ONE...

XD once again...*take note that it is important :P

NO ONE can judge YOU except YOURSELF..

so chikas....from now one...

be confident with your own style...

don't be a copy cat as it is not fun to see same style all over again..

:D

finally arrived

its getting dark and im here alone.,

seems like no one is here..except me..

mother.,

how i wish that im not here..

i want to be with you!!
but what else can i do..

i chose this path..

and its leading to happiness...

to have a bright future..

i have to be strong..

to get through all this...

make me stronger Allah...

amin :)

tired

what a tiring day..

went to kawad for kesatria negara from 5-7 pm..

im grateful as the weather was just fine..

actually i was hoping that it will rain heavily so i can sleep tightly on my bed...

without thinking about CALCULUS test that i have to sit by 3.30 pm tomorrow..

i am sooo not ready..

haven't make any preparation..

i am a last minute person but to be honest

i do feel scared that ill fail the paper..

which means i'll have to take the subject AGAIN for next semester..

but i will just pray to god and try y best to score..

bless me Allah...

save me from any harms...

AMIN :)

New Laptop

bought a new acer laptop for my mother...
by using her money for sure :P
she sounds so happy..
i can't wait to meet her by next week..
and to give her this cute lappy...
installed lots of application for you mama..
wishing you will be okay there...
i love you mama...
bless my mother Ya Allah...
mmwaaahhhhh :*

Nurshazwani Rosly

sayangku shazwani,

i cant wait to meet you by next week..

it's been a while...

nanti kite jumpe..

break fast together..

shopping same-same..

aku rindu kat kau sangat-sangat..

ingat lagi muka kau nangis time jumpa aku..

sedih sangat bile terpaksa berpisah..

nanti bulan november..

kita cuti lama..

banyak masa tuk spend time sama-sama...

kita berjalan ja tiap-tiap hari ye sayang...

i love you...

true friend never breaks =)

assignment~

now i'm doing Geometry's assignment..

in this task,

we have to design our dream house..

it is interesting as we have to use lots of shape besides making calculation on how much it will cost..

actually i don't think this type of assignment have something to do with mathematic except that we have to calculate the cost but it is...really fun to do it..

maybe our lecturer is trying to make us feel happy with this subject...

especially ME as i have a problem with this subject...

but for now.,

seems like everything is just fine..

thanks to Allah for that...

oh btw! i'm having a test on geometry in 4days!!

omg!!may Allah bless me..

Amin =]

statistics assignment XD

To get the 20% carried marks, i and other friends have to make an assignment where we have to choose an interesting topic and make a questionnaire. the report must be submitted before 26 august i guess? well as i and other group members were discussing to choose the most interesting topic. i came out with an idea about characteristic of a future husband. the others were excited as they think it is fun. we had trouble in creating question but seems like its all done now. i am so excited as i can't wait to see the outcomes. XD

Natasha Azmi Ong

To talk about this girl..

she is a new friend of mine as i met her during MDS(Minggu Destini Siswa) at UiTM Arau, Perlis.

To be honest, i've never thought that she will be my besties here.

Yes she is my besties.

A girl who is so kind and never behave like a bitch..yes she is...

she is a little snobbish sometimes... especially when the weather is too hot..

of course i will keep on babbling with her too as we tried to stand the heat here.

she was not my room mate but she will be asking for a transfer after this..

to talk about her..

there is nothing much i can say.

she is a perfect person to be a bestfriend for sure.

she understands me well.. when i am sad, she will be there for me.

although sometimes i get mad at her.

that is because she cant make a decision.

especially about choosing one thing out of two.

she should change that..

take this as an advice okay tasha.

so there is nothing left to say for now....

but thanks...for being a good friend of mine..

I LOVE YOU TASHA <3

Fasting Month!!!

My break fast menu for today are :
1. nasi tomato

2. kebab daging

3. cincau

4. krisantimum

5. tepung pelita

i bought all these at mushroom...

i was too hungry that i don't even care whether i can finish them or not...

but tadaa....i managed to finish all of it....

and now im too full....sorry god..im supposed to control my appetite but seems like i can't..

hehe countdown to eid => 27 days to go
and i'll be back home in 23days...

how i miss you mama...do wait for me okay? XD

mistakes =[

It is my mistake that i have always let you down,

It is my mistake that i am too selfish and keep on raising my ego,

It is my mistake that i made you sad and cry every time i am mad at you,

It is my mistake that i did not care to ask for forgiveness though it was my fault,

It is my mistake that i did not care much about how hard you try to understands me,

It is my mistake that i can't stop telling you that i can find someone's better than you,

It is my mistake that i did not tell you every single day that i love u with all of my heart,

I wish that i would not make any mistake anymore as though i am a bad girl..

I do love you with all of my heart baby.

An introduction about Me!! XD

My name is *** ****** ***** *****.

I was born on 05th November 1993 at Pusat rawatan Pakar Wanita Suhaimi.

I am living in Kuala Lumpur. A town with lots of fun for sure

I am now a student of UiTM Arau, Perlis

Studying Quantitative Science which is so about maths makes my world turns upside down. in a good way for sure as i loves maths. As u can see, this is my first time here...blogging is so not me but its worth a try for sure? as the starting of my blog....i wish that the upcoming days will turns out brightly so i will a lot to share here!