27th September 2012

after months,
today.
on such a precious day,
i start writing on my blog.again.
27 is indeed a real special number.
an important friend of mine was born on this date.
so on this day,
ill talk about him and our friendship.
well our friendship starts at the year of 2007 as we went to same school.
he was a really smart student so he managed to get into saser after getting a straight A's in PMR.
being a smart but sometimes naughty boy,he couldn't survive there.
'too much playing around' claimed by him..
at 2009..were back into same school again..
everything went normal..nothing much happened.
to be honest,i can say that we lost contact for....a year?
lols and then i got transferred to other school as my family moved.
just like before,on such an important day,this time on the day where his SPM's results is out,he contacted me..again.
again we start our friendship..
chatting and skype-ing whenever we can.
late at night till morning.
crap,forgot to mention that again........his results was just superb and he!
passed the interview of getting scholarship to study abroad
engineering.in France..
as the time gap is kinda big between Malaysia and France,
it was kinda hard for us to chat nor video cam..
but,
it was fun.
i had fun. ;)
now,
though we don't contact each other that much as before,
i don't mind.
as i know..
that the relationship between us is still there.
so may this friendship last forever.
and on your birthday,
im wishing you a happy birthday and may Allah be with you all the time.
may things get easier and may lots of obstacles come on your way,so that u'll become wiser and even stronger. just like me :P

Life

so its 10:02 am here.. and i got a 3 hours gap before next class.. getting bored with all those fb, twitter and such thing, so as i lay on my bed.visiting my OWN blog.. listening to the music. i realize how relaxing it is.. and how it makes me feel calm.. i wonder what happened to the old me who always love those hardcore and loud music.? and how about now? as i listen to it over and over again, tears run down my face. and my mind starts to do all those flashback2 thingy.. i remember how naughty i was back then.. how i stealthily drink the tap water during ramadhan, how i pull my sister's hair. how i put water in the balloon before i popped it right at the hall.. but that was 10 years ago.. i couldnt do anything to get back..and play it again. the time machine doesnt exist.. and even if it does. ill still wont use it. as memories should be remembered and not repeated. or else, it wont be that special anymore. im 19 now, and i wont be able to stay 19 forever. but obviously, if i dont wanna regret in 10 years from now, i gotta make sure that ill do many happy things in every single day. im not into diary but ill keep all those moment in my head..and in my heart.. im gonna appreciate every seconds of this precious life.

stay strong

lately,life is kinda rough for me.. and im sure that its not just me.. im not the only one who are sad, there are tons out there. sometimes, i wish that im the other girl. but i forgot one thing. that there are no one with no tears and feelings.. being in a hard situation, i wish i can run away. but ive always remember. that if i managed to get through this, ill get stronger. i've always hide from my true heart. i laugh when im supposed to cry. i rise my ego when im supposed to kneel. but im just a human. a normal and sinful human. so im sorry.. if u think that i didnt try my best..

mianhe omma ;(

mianhe omma,

i didn't realize how lonely you are at home.
back then,

i didn't call you as many times as u did.
by using the busyness as the excuse,
i left you.

when you start nagging,
even if its true but still,
ill try my best to stay away.

im sorry,
when you share your problems with me,
i didnt really give a damn about it.

i was distracted,
with the world till i forgot the most important one
and its you mum.

i can get anything that i want in this life.
im capable and i know that.
but i won't be able to get the other you.

so here i am,
asking for forgiveness,
and a promise.
that ill try my best to be a better person as your daughter.

i <3 you mother

home =)

its really great to be at home again...
after 6 months, i am now free to live my happy life again.
but doesn't mean i hate being there.
truth is i miss you a lot tasha and farah.
im missing you a lot that i can' stop crying looking at both of you leaving.
it's real hard huh?
we'll miss home when we are away.
and when we are home,
we'll start to miss those memories.
we never managed to do all those plans but its okay.
the time will come and it'll be so much fun then.
being with both of you is such a miracle for me.
the feelings of loved burst..
having both of you as my bestfriend is one of the greatest thing ive ever had in my life..

thank you guys,
for all those laughter and tears..
ill keep our memories right here in my heart...
and ill never ever gonna let myself forget all of it..
NOKTAH =P

hey there :)

hey there,
how are you now?
you are still busy as before huh?
good for you actually.

hey there,
how is life?
im pretty sure that you are doing good,
or what else could it be right?

hey there,
i know you are in love
loving and being loved by a person
and truthfully i am happy for you.

hey there,
I've been such a matured girl lately,
you realize that too right?
my way of thinking has changed,
i am not a kid anymore.

hey there,
still there is one thing u gotta remember
i am still a girl with a fragile heart.
i can be matured in front of everyone,
and ull see the matured me.
but my true heart will show its color when im alone.
you have to remember that too.

hey there,
i promised to move on
and its done already.
yes i have done it.

i want to say that,
i wonder why the heart is still aching sometimes,
but i cant.
as i know exactly the reason why.

so hey there,
live your life,
make it blast beautifully every single day,
never regrets for what have happened.
but remember that theres always gonna be a tomorrow
and the tomorrow,is a mystery for you to uncover it
=)

Life and Obstacle

life and obstacle are friends,
just like one of Lenka s song titled "trouble is a friend".
why would i say this?
clearly we human cant run from problems, obstacle and all those "drama"
we just can't run from it.
some people will frown. lose hope when they collided into great obstacle
without realizing that. its the obstacles which caused them to be stronger, to be a survivor in this world
without obstacles we human will be too soft.
too soft to fight.

but i have to admit,
there are some moment where you feels like, u really really cant take it.
feeling that the pressure is tooo high and u cant overcome it.
i know that feeling. i understand .
but its okay..yes i mean it!
it is really okay :)
get yourself a friend. a real honest friend and ull realize that the big obstacle is getting weaker.
but remember peeps.
put your trust into the right person.
and pray. pray to Allah.
He's always listening and will never give you an obstacle that u cant handle.
=]